Evolution of Life

Over the past couple of months a lot has been changing in my life. In fact, almost everything has changed. My schedule, my family, my home, my pets, my love life. Nothing feels normal anymore. I am standing on an island slowly eroded by the ocean around me till I have just one foot worth of solid ground remaining.

The solid ground is Jesus and the community that follows Him. As I stood sobbing in church I breathed deep knowing He's the only thing that doesn't ever change. A friend saw me and wrapped me in her arms.

There was a little while last year that I didn't go to church. It was a painful and sad place. It felt unsafe. I found no comfort in the building or the regularity of service and niceties. Not that anyone had been evil to me. It just momentarily wasn't the place where I could find Jesus. I didn't lose my friends though, and found comfort instead in their homes and embraces.

Now I'm in a new season. The dust is settling and the question arrises, what do I build now? I am finding rhythms that work, piece by piece. Moving my body in the morning. Eating my plain Cheerios for breakfast. Sitting on the porch with the cat after work. These small, boring, normal things are helping me find peace again.